Thoughts on Failure

The transcript of this video is below.

Parents care a lot about grades. They want their kids to get into a good school to get a good job.

But who defines good?

It’s not a word that dictates any more about a person than the buzzwords on their resume.

My freshman year of high school I would cry over my math homework at the desk in our living room. No matter how much effort I put into studying, I never felt like I understood what I needed to do to succeed.

I never felt good about my work or the class. I asked the teacher for help, but that never felt like enough.

One day while crying over a failed test my mom asked me: “Did you try?”

I told her I asked the teacher for help after school, I did extra homework problems. Whatever the teacher recommended, I did.

She then asked, “Did you do everything you could?”

I told her yes.

She patted my back and hugged me. “Then you gave it your best. It’s okay that you’re not good at math. At least you can say you tried.”

Failure sucks. It is the worst feeling to know you didn’t succeed somewhere that you should have. But failure or the feeling of failure isn’t something to look at negatively.

If you tried and did all you could, then you didn’t fail.

You did your best.

It’s okay to not be good at something.

Summer of 2016 Reading Goal

My summer reading goals aren’t usually specific. Often times I have a stack of books I’ve collected over the school year that I haven’t had the chance to read because they’re not required reading. Being a creative writing major who takes many required lit courses means I save reading books for school breaks and the summer.

I’ve started to delve deeply into comic books – which isn’t much of a surprise given how much manga I used to read.

Last October I went to NYCC with my friend Katie to attend the Women of Marvel panel. It was amazing and so worth listening to the writers, editors, and designers that spoke about the stories they worked on. And all I wanted to do was remain with all of those fans and creators, and have more than a one hour discussion about the female heroes and villains. I left NYCC with a promise to return, and a backpack full of comics.

Now that school is over for the year, I have more than enough time to focus on my comic education. And after meeting Hayley Atwell from Agent Carter, and the Women of Marvel panel, it seemed about time to turn my comic focus into high gear.

So on May 10 I texted Katie to help me with comic recommendations for my Summer 2016: Women in Comics list. This list includes female writers, artists, protagonists, antagonists, etc. Once we compiled a list of character and creators, I started to find the graphic novels. Some suggestions from a few online friends have rounded out the list to 64 books as of this writing. Although I keep adding more, or revising the list to swap out titles.

64 books is more than my goal for the year (which is 40 books in 52 weeks, and so far I’m only at 12 books, and I’m four behind where I need to be).

What am I going to do with this impressive list?

Obviously read my way through it.

I also want to focus on the characters that aren’t getting as much attention as The Avengers. I want to have knowledge of their origins, and story. And I want to be able to recommend comics to my friends that are apprehensive about diving in.

Plus, if I want to ever write comics, I should probably know something more than just characters.

With all of this reading, I’ll be using this blog to review the comics. This blog is about to get nerdy real fast.

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