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This is a short story I’m working on based off of a Tumblr post I found forever ago. Comments/critiques and suggestions are appreciated. There are other scenes I want to add, and change some of the dialogue around.
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Thoughts on Failure

The transcript of this video is below.

Parents care a lot about grades. They want their kids to get into a good school to get a good job.

But who defines good?

It’s not a word that dictates any more about a person than the buzzwords on their resume.

My freshman year of high school I would cry over my math homework at the desk in our living room. No matter how much effort I put into studying, I never felt like I understood what I needed to do to succeed.

I never felt good about my work or the class. I asked the teacher for help, but that never felt like enough.

One day while crying over a failed test my mom asked me: “Did you try?”

I told her I asked the teacher for help after school, I did extra homework problems. Whatever the teacher recommended, I did.

She then asked, “Did you do everything you could?”

I told her yes.

She patted my back and hugged me. “Then you gave it your best. It’s okay that you’re not good at math. At least you can say you tried.”

Failure sucks. It is the worst feeling to know you didn’t succeed somewhere that you should have. But failure or the feeling of failure isn’t something to look at negatively.

If you tried and did all you could, then you didn’t fail.

You did your best.

It’s okay to not be good at something.

So it goes.

The transcript of this video is below.

As a freshman, my friend Jess told me that the next four years would fly by. Time is a goon.

It’s the weekend before finals, and as I and my peers write term papers and rehearse presentations, I’m faced with bidding farewell to a place I’m privileged to call home. This bittersweet experience makes my throat get tight and my eyes well.

For the first time in four years, I’m going to pack up my room and not move across campus for the summer. I won’t walk into the Office of Residence Life for work and spend my evenings hanging out with friends on the RA staff.

College is this strange time in your life where you are figuring out who you are. A process that doesn’t stop after you put on the cap and gown.

In two weeks I’m going to cross a stage and be given a diploma. A piece of paper that represents my academic achievement. What it doesn’t show is the tears, mental breakdowns, coffee cups, laughter, late nights, and friends I gained along the way.

I grew far more at college than I ever would have anticipated. That growth changed me for the better, even though at times it didn’t feel worth it.

Wherever I end up I will have these memories to look back on. They say when one door closes, another opens. But this feels like more than that. This is more than closing a chapter of my life.

So it goes.

About those rejection emails

I am going to make the assumption I am not getting accepted to grad school this year. With four out of five rejections in, I think I can bet on the final rejection coming at some point in the next week or two. Or perhaps I should assume by their silence that it won’t happen this year.

If I were a traditional college student, I think this number of rejections would hurt a lot more. Early-twenties me would have taken the rejection much harder, which would have fueled my imposter syndrome in a way that perhaps would have made me reconsider writing. The self-deprecation of my skills was stronger then.

At twenty-seven I’m taking these rejection emails in stride. I can make some guesses as to why I’m being told no. My research subject was too odd. My research was too specific. My research wasn’t targeting the right school. I can’t art for the one MFA program I applied to. You know what, though? That’s fine.

I keep reminding myself that things happen for a reason.

I’ll sulk into some video games and comic books this weekend, maybe even treat myself to some Mr. Macs or tacos.

And then I’ll dive head first into the job applications. I’ll talk to some professors about their thoughts on my next steps, and see what advice they can give me.

I’ve been rejected from things before, and I’ve learned that I function best by taking my negative energy and putting it towards something new.

We’ll see what I make this time.

Marvel & Espionage

Marvel’s main focus has been on the superheroes. Agents of Shield does have a slight focus on the normal people but for the most part, they’ve been focused on the rise of the Inhumans. That makes sense given the Inhumans show they are developing.

Why can’t they do a larger focus on the characters that help make up the superhero teams that don’t have powers?

Marvel has a wide variety of characters who are known spies and assassins. Bobbi Morse, Black Widow, and Hawkeye (Kate and Clint) to just name a few. If you haven’t read their comics, I highly recommend checking them out. Of course then there’s our oldest spy and founder of S.H.I.E.L.D., Agent Peggy Carter.

Espionage movies are popular with the most well-known spy being none other than James Bond. He is followed closely by a host of other spy films like Kingsmen, the Bourne series, the Mission: Impossible series and the list goes on from a simple Google search.Why are we so enamored with spy films?

Some of this has to do with the blind belief that our security organizations know what they’re doing. History might dictate otherwise of course. It might also be the escapist idea that there is more happening in the world than what we know. Somewhere there’s a car chase happening through the streets of some European city because an operative has been compromised. Someone is dropping out of a helicopter onto a snow-capped mountain to break into a hidden hideout of an enemy.

It all sounds like a grand adventure.

Maybe it’s time some of the adventures are given greater depth. Superheroes and the actions they take against an enemy are at a macro level. Their world knows when there is an attack on a city or when an enemy rises from the shadows. It’s a little hard to ignore when aliens are flying down from a wormhole in the sky and turning New York City into a giant game of Galaga.

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By having a series of movies or a television show that focuses on what happens with characters like Kate Bishop, Clint Barton, Black Widow, or Bobbi Morse, then it expands the universe and shows the secret side of things. Granted, I understand that Agents of SHIELD is supposed to be just that, but they have been slowly taking that in a different direction with more and more Inhumans cropping up.

Perhaps once Inhumans comes out, they’ll take the series back to its espionage roots. If they want to do a greater foray into the espionage genre, pulling in the Hawkeyes and Black Widow would be an excellent way to do it.

Marvel has a lot happening so I can imagine they’re busy planning the different phases of the MCU.

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I’m not as well-versed in the espionage genre, but fellow writer and blogger, Katie, is.